this funny story

oh man you know how she go i did find this one recently had been hidden for a while

so it goes the man walks down the road in the shoes and the suit and the hat thats flat on top and not round
in between the green grass

the ground breaths like purple meat and orange meets the clear blue sky of trust(which was once white)

you know how this story goes, i found it in my attic once it had been hidden for a while

don't get addicted to words I always said so I probably hid it from myself and then boom i find it and it reads nothing like I remember

the great reminder shines better than a seals belly in shiny conditions

smiling my face isnt burning and neither are my open teeth or open throat

this isnt surprise nor expectation

how's this story go now?

ready to be through

and done

undoing the undone and reinstating the states estate, making statements about the factual
directly zooming and booming running and gunning this is what truly has me coming undone

i'll listen better and burn slower, stop completely and glide uniquely
om to the homage and homage to the om
word to the mother, words from the other

taking sides and sliding ill
this will takes nothing more than a bad egg cracked and scrambled processed and fried and starched and restarted, rebooted
this new Nintendo thing works

proportion purports
sickness distorts
stay for the entire dance performance, stand up perk up

sit the fuck down and listen to your ass pains in the seat of shame
shameless beginnings
remember
"silly brother" says the pink fairy looking down from above she has pink hair with shiny details brown eyes and brown skin

"this isn't a dream, and i'm not a fairy, there isn't anything scarier than smoke posing as a fairy"
now that's fairly odd for a fairy to say about dream of pink smoke sharing shiny details of origins

I've already forgotten.

Two steps back is twenty seven feet, and a new unobscured view of oblivion. Unobscured isn't a word.

Illuminated view of Oblivion, without fear, and fear silently creeping and still able to hear silence I said the words "Oh hey can you help me out, I get it now, this is death and I'm fucked for guidance unless you help, you've got my ears eyes nose and full devotion of body and non-body alike, ill listen and I won't forget"

Instantaneously vivid black smoke appeared on the horizon of nothing about 100 feet in front my nothing eyes and i opened my nothing mouth to gasp in nothing but pure awe awesome.

Approaching the smoke it turned in on itself slowly crept back into nothing dullness and back out into nothing clarity, no light but detailed beyond belief, and I approached it's nothing edge and began to see images of me myself and the imagined pictures of what and who I am in the recent nothing 2 or 3 years appear and I instantly recognized this as okay but I still began to weigh the consequences.

"I'm going to disappear" i said

and I heard my breath

"Will I die?" i asked

and I heard my breath

"I should ask someone about this in real fake life so I can better understand fake nothing approaching fake nothing smoke fizzling into who knows what."

and so i woke up.

shadware: sometimes bob, you simply hit gold

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environmental regulations

i like to take pictures of the books I own because then I can read them on my computer without having to crack them open. 

how are you doing?

if i say good, I'll forget it in too days
if i say bad, I'll start to realize the good
if i say I realize the good, I'll see you are there
and others...
and hope to help realize the good
if I help realize the good, well I struggle, and I get confused
I'm confused.

the passout game

yesterday I fainted when I woke up to get ready for work.
I woke up because some folks that used to live in my room are in town visiting and I heard them so I decided to get up. They are named Kasia and Stephen.

I went into the bathroom and went #1. As soon as I was finished, I felt like vomiting and my head became very light indeed.

Judging by how quickly the feeling was rushing upon me, I decided I was definitely about to pass out and started making my way to go the ground, as I was doing so I sorta tried to raise my voice and called for help --

-- and then I was in this sort of dream for 10 minutes
-- and then I was no where, and I couldn't figure out where I was, and there was no body and nobody to grab onto.
-- and then I woke up on the floor and Steven was above me, I asked for some help and mentioned something about being on the floor for a really long time.

Turns out I had passed out for about a minute or so, and I had opened the door before I made it to the floor. I woke up and Stephen was looking down at me on the floor and I told him I passed out and asked for help up. It was pretty interesting, because this is how we met. They are good folks and they encouraged me to go to the ER and so we did and it turns out passing out is normal or some jazz. I still felt ill afterwards and so I stayed home. I still feel kinda ill, but I've been drinking liquids and stuff.

I would like to clarify what I meant by my description of the moment where I had no body and nobody to grab onto.
Suddenly I found I was no where, I didn't know where I was, and I couldn't move because there was no body to move. This scared the shit out of me because I didn't know where I was, but I also was not sure who I was, but I knew I must be someone so I had better get that back asap, I needed some reassurance. There was a very huge effort made and then I think I may have started waking up.

Rewind. So before this moment of despair, I believe I had just realized that I was indeed not where I thought I was, and the fear that set in afterwards may have rendered me totally ignorant to my current circumstances. Which means I forgot, and then became afraid until I had a chance to be calm that things were going to be okay anyway.

I do believe at one point I thought I was dead.